Today in the prayer room I was singing and felt like God was speaking to us (in our small prayer room) about how much He loves us and enjoys us even in our weakness and weariness due to our own sins or mistakes. I know, stereotypical message- God loves you. But as I was singing it today, I noticed my own unbelief in the area. I lingered for awhile and kept singing the same few choruses over and over again for about a half hour.
And the more I sang it, the more I realized that if I sing something then I probably should believe it. And live as if I believe it. I've heard it said before that we listen more to our voice than anyone else's. We will believe our own self-talk sermons way more than anyone great speaker's words. That can mean the good or bad things we say to and about ourselves and about God.
The interesting thing though is that the more I sang it, the more I did believe it. Laura Hackett's song "You Satisfy Me" has a line that goes "I've gotta sing my way into the truth." I feel like that is, in part, the essence of having a relationship with God. This is why repetition is so important. Because in the prayer room singing, I may believe for that moment, but a single moment isn't enough. I want to abide in Him and live from His truth. I have to sing and meditate on His truths day and night. I need moment by moment, day by day. I need to constantly preach to myself, lest I forget or lest I think I know something that my actions prove otherwise.
Sing your way into truth. Sing your way into encountering Him. And dare to believe again.